Babies, say what? Yes, my little Woodie (that just don't sound the best =] ) had 3 babies yesterday about noon-ish. I was nervous when I found them because momma was under the bedding, hiding. The babies were all calm and doing good but I only seen 2 of the babies at first.


On with the slacker end of this post....
I said that I would come back (the next day but obviously this is not...) and post about my #1's. So yes, I'm late. I should know to never plan a post on Calvin's days off. I am no good at blogging when he is home.

Is that good or bad?
    Read on and then decide.


[one] pick up my bible that is collecting dust! Teach and learn from it!:
 Well I am happy to say this is a big YES!! Not only have I picked my bible up but my family and I have been going to church. God is great and we feel so good!
[one] believe in myself:
What exactly does that even mean? I would say there are many points of this short goal. I seem to have complications with believing how good I am at a certain things. I know I can do a lot of things but I have little faith that I can really do them, and so I don't. This is still a changing manner but I can and am slowing believing in myself again. Since starting a serious weight loss (healthy living) life I have seen that I can do it. I can be reliable. I can set goals and reach them. Now the next thing to work on is not procrastinating. I believe I procrastinate because I have a long thought process and (again working on this goal) I am not sure I can do it correctly if I do it now without thought, even though many people tell me YES you can.

[one] be more thankful for my husband and his hard work.
I have always been thankful but I did lack in letting him know. I know how awesome I feel after I have cleaned the house and how down I can suddenly turn if Calvin does not praise my hard work. Why shouldn't it be the same for him. Yes, he is working for our family because, well, he has to. I expected him to tell me "It looks good in the home" but I would give nothing in return for how awesome he is and how greatly I think of him and the many things he does for our family. (Honey, I love you)

[one] take more time for family and family activities:
We are always doing things as a family. Since Calvin has been on a 10 on 4 off work schedule, we have so much more time to really do things together. Last year he began this schedule and on his days off we would still sit at home and he would relax and enjoy it. As time went on he was feeling more rested and more used to the schedule and we would head out of the home on the days he had off. Now you hardly see us home when he is on days off. We are always out doing something. I love it and it is so healthy for our family. We have grown this past year, for that I am blessed.

[one] get healthy for my family and myself:
If you have been following me this year, you will know the answer to this. Not only am I getting healthier for my family, but Calvin also. We have been eating healthy for well over a year but lacked on activities to get us moving. That is no longer the case. and since winter is finally over (even if we have had snow in may) we are outside even more and doing many things to keep active and get healthy.

[one] spend more intimate time with hubby
I will not go into details, but this goal has been succeeded and the way it has pulled us together is bliss. I love that I am loving myself and in return loving my husband wholeheartedly.

coat on, off, off, on, off, on, off, off, on, off, on, off, off, on, off, on, off, off, on, off, on, off, off, on, off, on, off, off, on, off!

SCREEEEEEEAAAAAAM- - WTF why is she screaming (Addie) Oh that would be because bee has something she wants, or that bee took something from her

THUD- - Brianna I am NOT going to tell you again, do not pick up your sister and tell her to lean back, you are going to give her brain damage from slamming her head on the ground 20 million times a day! SERIOUSLY, I said stop.

skimper..skatter, whoosh, "weeeeeee"- - OMG what are you doing now. Yea I guess running, jumping on my bed and sliding from silky bottom blanket would make that noise and be fun but REALLY you have to much energy and mom has a headache!

Addie, Addie, Addisyn...huh.... boom...screeeeeaaaaaaam! BEE, if you just pushed her off the bed I swear child...no mom she just a a just a she was I didn't, um she....that's it TIME OUT!!!

bounce bounce bounce clomp- - addie after 20k times of bouncing on that ball, with the same face slamming result...you would think you would um i don't know, NOT DO IT!!

scratch the map I have a personal ride to...

Its Wednesday and for the hubby that means Weigh In and I am anxiously waiting his arrival home and find out his results. He is sure he is down 5-7 lbs. but that is all depending on his water and food intake today.

UPDATE: He pushed a -6.3. YAY!! I am so proud of him. He stated that he was confident that he was this weeks winner. A bit cocky, if you will. Well a female challenger pushed a -7.5 so he was not the "biggest loser". He plans to work extra hard this week and is determined to to lose more than anyone else. They only have about 10 challengers so I have complete faith that he can push a big numbers and be next weeks prize winner. In every way, he is my winner. -6lbs is awesome for the first week of weight loss! This puts him at about -35lbs total from when he actually began his weight loss, which had it's kick off this last summer.

Parent Teacher Conerences.
Thursday we had a a meeting with Brianna's preschool teachers. I could stop at "She is on track for her age." Which I am thrilled to hear. Brianna just makes the deadline of September 15th for Kindergarten so her teachers did pose a concern for that. They ran through a few different results of previous children going now versus going in a year. I have always pushed for waiting a year but my husband was set on her going this coming fall. My thought are (and have been) that she will be 4 when she starts school then turning 5. I am not fully comfortable with that. After hearing from the teachers, my same concerns, I believe Calvin is pushing for keeping her out until the following fall. Few things that I believe are making him think differently are things like her being behind on driving when everyone else will be, graduating when she is 17, and the home hitter (for me especially) is if she does happen to fall behind, they no longer hold children back. they just push them off to the next grade, ready or not. We want the best for her. In May we will meet again with her preschool teachers. They are sure she will be on track and it will then be the toss up of her age at that time.

Church.
We made it to church this weekend. I expressed my feelings about going (better yet, not going) and he agreed that we need that friendship with the Lord and need the guidence to get there from our church, pastor and friends. After all, a personal relationship with Jesus changes everything.

Thought of the week.
Live your life so you don't have to hide your diary.

What's that saying? Looks are deceiving. This runs true in many aspects of peoples lives. When you are fat, people seem to think you are shy, unlovable, gross and so on. When you have an awesome car like a Cadillac, people assume you have money, and lots of it.

There is also that other saying. Don't judge a book by it's cover! I have suffered with weight issues for a long time now and I know of the judgment people pass when they see me. I have to say it's a shame (not to toot my own horn) that they didn't get to know the real me. I am so much more then what they see. Same with the nice vehicle. I drive a Jeep just to clear things up, but you see someone in a Cadillac and think, whoa that must be nice. What is nice? The insurance that is high, the payment that is even higher. Now I am not saying that everyone with a Cadillac is in debt over their nice ride, I am just saying, you truly never know!

Where am I going with this. Well I am going a lot deeper then the car you drive. I am talking about the relationship I have with my husband. We have now been together for 8 years. Things have always seemed to be okay. But in the house, behind closed doors, it was more like a friendship. Someone I was living with. Someone who was depressed and I was also. It was not sexual 98% of the time, it wasn't lovey dovey, it was more like I am mom, he is dad and that was that. We were not husband and wife. Somewhere in being mother, taxi, wife, cook, cleaning lady, I lost Jessica. I lost Jessica as loving wife to my more than wonderful husband. I lost Jessica the fun going mother of 2 adorable daughters. I was just gone.

Who knew that one chat with the hubby, and the expressions of emotions and feelings between the 2 of us could change everything. Guess what?? I found Jessica. I found my sex drive (maybe more than Calvin can keep up with) I found that mother I have always known I was, I found the joys in cleaning my home to feel good not just to have it clean enough. I found that drive I needed to start working out and really hunkering down on my eating to get in shape and healthy for myself! For Jessica! For Calvin, who loves me no matter what but is right there on my weight loss journey pushing me and working out (literally) right beside me and keeping me positive about my acing muscles and sore legs/arms/abs and such. But more importantly, for my children who want to run to the car with mommy but can't because mommy can't breath (lol) or want mommy to slide with them, but I am lazy and would rather watch from the grass. I don't want to die a young age from problems cause by being obese. I don't want to deal with diabetes if I can avoid it. So while the most important person is me, my weight loss is very important to and for my family as well. (sorry that kinda of jumped off the relationship anyways..)

Are you struggling in your relationship with your spouse? Don't be ashamed, no one EVER said love was easy! So here we are with another saying, Don't sweat the small things. Well I guess it all depends on how you take that, but it was the small things *(see below) that the hubby and I put back into our relationship that has helped us move up in the love department, helped the sex drive, dissipated the depression and made this house a home again.

*more than a peck. I don't expect you or myself to go into a make out session, but a deep kiss can lighten any mood, make you hubby feel at home when he arrives home and with Calvins makes him long for more (after the kids are in bed of course)
*holding hands. in the car, at the mall, even at home. the power of touch is amazing and makes me as a women feel that even if he is not saying I love you, his hand, entangled with mine shows me the love.

One more saying before you go.

We were given: Two hands to hold. To legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen. But why only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find.

won't you say your name for me?

Cute, right? It is a song that my daughter Brianna has learned in preschool. And busy busy is how I have felt for days now. Thus why you have not seen any new posts. School, hunting, babysitting, summer events and so on have been occuping my time. I have so many picuters to share and stories to go along with them but that will have to wait. Even though I may have some time today to share, my hubby has the camera with him and Brianna hunting.

Jaykob is getting his cast today, I will share pictures of that as well and this weekend (Sunday) is Brianna's 4th birthday so more pictured from that also. Promise, I have a 3 page post coming soon =]!

I want to start this off with ((drum roll)) Smoke free since Aug. 12th 2009! Nice right. Well I take that back, I did have one the other day, and ICK! It was gross, and that was a little encouraging. I felt accomplished. And honestly the only reason I did smoke, was out of pure habit. I have not had patches on for days, so I know it's wasn't anything to do with nicotine. anyways, YaY for me!!

I know...

I have been slacking with FLYbaby Fridays. I am sorry I am just not feeling them! I would love for it to hit, but I am just not loving it! I will continue to give different little cleaning hints and tips, tricks though. They will just come whenever.

Moving on.

I am a movie GEEK! I would love to talk about movies. I am not sure, but I think it would be fun. I was thinking of doing it a few different ways. We all think of the weekend as movie night. So maybe Thursday I can review a movie (or two) that way on Friday on your way home from work you can pick something up.

-or-

Sometimes I get movies before they hit shelves, but since that is not always true I can just review after I watch them so you know to reserve it or whatever on Tuesday.

-or-

Yes, another option! I can just review them as I go, because I can watch a movie every night some weeks but do I really want a movie post everyday. No.

So give me some of your ideas, thoughts, suggestions please. I think it could be real helpful since I do watch so many and you may want to know what you are getting ahead of time. Something to think about! But please think out loud.


This has been a great week. The little boy I have been watching (we now can call Korbyn) is doing better everyday. Less crying when Meisha (his mother) leaves, eating well, and we are getting to know each other. Oh and can't forget about his sleeping! First day when he slept 20 minutes, I was like my goodness I could not even re coop that quickly, but back at it I was. He is VERY busy little boy, a bit of a bully (it's all good) but most importantly he is fun, and blessed, and has a good mother and great people surrounding him! I expect things to get even better and soon we will have nothing but fun while Korbyn and the girls are together! Ain't he a stud!

Well there is a little catch up to my life! While we get used to having Korb around, I will blog, as I continue to do well with cleaning and not smoking, I will blog, but as money runs short, I may not blog. Sorry to say but my blog my have to go on an end of summer vacation as we are flirting with the idea of turning off internet and cable while we need a little extra money. I will update that as we know more and decide.

Hope you enojyed your mashed post-atoes! HaHa!

Sometimes you will do anything to entertain children. Tonight was no different when we decided to throw money into the yard for a treasure hunt ! My daughter is quicker than lightening when it comes to great ideas and after all visable change was picked up she goes to my brother and with a sigh asks "Where is the metal detector?"

Do you feel like you are running around in circles, your house will never be clean, you just may loose your mind...I can bet you are a mother. This week you will step into my life as a mother of two energetic, outgoing, driving mother crazy daughters in Because children live here.


Its a nice summer day, you hear laughter, lemonade quenches your thirst, and your children are wild baboons running about and making you smile. The beautiful day God blessed you with comes to an end so you head inside, put on a movie and snuggle close. The next morning, you decide to take a seat outside by yourself for one minute with your precious children lay restless, and your yard is a mess. You swore the balls were gathered, the snack plate taken inside, and bikes put in their parking area, you were wrong.

Toys scattering your lawn...

Because children live here.


Potty training, oh what a blessing. I love the age of diapers, but the diapers them selves, not so much. So my oldest has been trained since she was just shy of two, but there are some things they just forget about. Wiping, it's a big deal, they have to take that much more time out of playing. Then flushing, wow, more moments taken away from the toys unplayed with for seconds, it's rough. So my daughter takes her bathroom breaks and I always say, don't forget to wipe sweetie. Then pitter patter to the toy room or back out side begins and I then have to say, "Oops, you forgot to flush!" Where am I going with this well...


Toilets get broke from hurried flushing...

Because children live here.


Sunrise (and sunset) are blessings in disguise. Sunrise begins a glorious day and sunset is another day survived (if you are a mother this makes perfect sense) But when sunrise is not your ideal time to wake, the blessing is hard to believe in. That was the case this week. My youngest daughter, who now I know is cutting teeth, decided 10 til 3:00am was a good time to wake. She fussed some so I gave her the binki, got back to bed and she was fussing again. This time we shared a moment over a bottle, and I laid her back down and she was calm for 10 minutes or so. My hubs then got up around 3:12am and he was back and forth with her a few times before I said to just bring her into bed with me. She then thought it was play time. Karate chopping my face, laughing, kicking...out of bed we went. Guess she was ready to be awake, mommy, yea...NO! She did go back to sleep about 5:30 am but I had already had 2 cups of coffee, so there was no sleeping for me at that time.


Seeing the sun rise...

Because children live here.

I was thinking, I never really had a FAV photo, I had many in the race for first, so I just took a look at old photos on my computer...it was like memories coming back. I chose this photo because it's my first daughter ((now almost 4yrs)) and she just looks so innocent, and it made me think of how quickly she has grown up! AWE! *tear* Also reminded me of how much she LOVED those sunglasses. I think we still have then matter of fact!

Watch out Hollywood

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