I want to start this off with ((drum roll)) Smoke free since Aug. 12th 2009! Nice right. Well I take that back, I did have one the other day, and ICK! It was gross, and that was a little encouraging. I felt accomplished. And honestly the only reason I did smoke, was out of pure habit. I have not had patches on for days, so I know it's wasn't anything to do with nicotine. anyways, YaY for me!!

I know...

I have been slacking with FLYbaby Fridays. I am sorry I am just not feeling them! I would love for it to hit, but I am just not loving it! I will continue to give different little cleaning hints and tips, tricks though. They will just come whenever.

Moving on.

I am a movie GEEK! I would love to talk about movies. I am not sure, but I think it would be fun. I was thinking of doing it a few different ways. We all think of the weekend as movie night. So maybe Thursday I can review a movie (or two) that way on Friday on your way home from work you can pick something up.

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Sometimes I get movies before they hit shelves, but since that is not always true I can just review after I watch them so you know to reserve it or whatever on Tuesday.

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Yes, another option! I can just review them as I go, because I can watch a movie every night some weeks but do I really want a movie post everyday. No.

So give me some of your ideas, thoughts, suggestions please. I think it could be real helpful since I do watch so many and you may want to know what you are getting ahead of time. Something to think about! But please think out loud.


This has been a great week. The little boy I have been watching (we now can call Korbyn) is doing better everyday. Less crying when Meisha (his mother) leaves, eating well, and we are getting to know each other. Oh and can't forget about his sleeping! First day when he slept 20 minutes, I was like my goodness I could not even re coop that quickly, but back at it I was. He is VERY busy little boy, a bit of a bully (it's all good) but most importantly he is fun, and blessed, and has a good mother and great people surrounding him! I expect things to get even better and soon we will have nothing but fun while Korbyn and the girls are together! Ain't he a stud!

Well there is a little catch up to my life! While we get used to having Korb around, I will blog, as I continue to do well with cleaning and not smoking, I will blog, but as money runs short, I may not blog. Sorry to say but my blog my have to go on an end of summer vacation as we are flirting with the idea of turning off internet and cable while we need a little extra money. I will update that as we know more and decide.

Hope you enojyed your mashed post-atoes! HaHa!

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I have started part time baby sitting for a chick I literally have known since I was a pip squeak! What a joy it is to have our children grow up and play together! It's been a really good day. Today is our first day and he has been awesome.We will call him K. until I talk to his mother about blogging about him. Altho I have pictured him on here already, oops! When K's mother left this morning, he started getting pretty upset about it. Well I held him, and after the door shut he was not having it so I asked if he wanted a cracker... silence! Yea that's right, I rock. haha! K snacked on a cracker along with the girls and the day has been bliss since! Besides MY child. Addisyn has a little discomfort of K being here, but soon I hope she will get over it and not be as jealous and also not want to be held all the time. It's not like he is a baby baby, he is actually older then Addie, but she is just not sure around having another child in the home I suppose.

Not Me! Monday. @ MyCharmingChildren with Mckmama
I have learned that quitting smoking will probably be the hardest thing I will ever do. If you have been following, you know that my husband is also quitting tobacco (chewing). Well I will be honest, I was having a real bad time with the cravings, and to deal I did not leave my (irritated from quitting tobacco) husband to hang with the kiddos as I duct into our room for a snooze. Yea I would never!

Then
This past Friday we went out bow hunting for antelope. It was hubs, Addie and myself, Brianna was with her grandmother. While I wish Brianna was with us, she tends to be very needy while we hunt. When we hunt she is in the front, on my lap, on his lap, tired, hungry, has to pee, needs to.... okay you get the idea, and the fact that I was quitting smoking , it would have been unbearable for me to handle her needs haha. I love my child and of course would have loved her to go with us, but that trip, it was probably for the best!

5:33 P.M.It took me a while to get back to my blog because I have a craving that I felt was going to defeat me. I felt shaky, dizzy, I was day dreaming and just not together. I could have cried on request and turned around and blew fire from my nostrils. How did I deal, well I took a nap. Addisyn was sleeping and Brianna was watching cartoon and almost asleep. When I woke up I felt fine. No craving, no need, nothing! It was nice. I think one thing that triggered it was that I ate. Well I also just ate dinner, and this time I feel well. So far! I am not even wearing a patch! There was one time that I thought about going outside, and that was right after I ate and I was thinking I will let the family finish then clean up when I get in, but honestly it was not that bad of an urge. I got over it fairly quick and like I said feel good now.

Calvin is feeling much the same way that I am. He is short tempered right now, and I forgive him for that! He also can't handle a noise going on for an amount of time (ex. Addisyn crying) without getting frustrated and hanging his head. Again I forgive him and understand! I am sure I am the same way, but I don't really see it. I know I am triggered by the smallest thing, and tears well up, but I don't let them roll! I take a breath and chill! haha. I am now at 18 hours from my last cigarette!

7:09P.M.Success! We went to Calvin's fathers house because it is his fathers birthday. Well while we were there I seen at least 4 cigarettes light and it the smell was obnoxious! Was it torture? Not really, because I prepared myself before we went over there with a fresh patch and also with the mind set that I was strong enough to make it. Not only that but I know that this would not be the first time in this situation. I am proud of myself! I feel like I have done well!

Since it in 9:00 in the east, I am going to post this now, and my updates will be at the top for the rest of the night!